Chapter 293

Chapter 293

My heart has already burned to ashes, so why does hurt so much? The continuous agony left me in a haze.

I remembered waiting for a hundred years in Acrab. How I imagined Kaichen when I closed my eyes, eagerly awaiting for him, was completely different from the image of him.

I waited for him, with vague expectations of what he would look like.

In the end, the dreamified version was different from the real person. I realized that I was waiting for the real Kaichen, not the Great Mage Kaichen, whom I loved.

It was causing the piercing pain in my heart.

Why was that? I was waiting for him like Acrab, hoping to be saved from danger, yet why did my heart ache like this?

Is the choice I’ve made now the right one? Then, what should I do?

‘It’s your destiny, isn’t it? You have to choose.’

It was a terrible answer. Nevertheless, I listented to it.

‘Are you just going to keep waiting?’

I laughed. I heard someone mumbling something in response to my laughter.

Having experienced Kaichen’s death countless times in my dreams, I watched his death without being able to lift a finger every time.

I could only cry endlessly, knowing that I could do nothing to save the one I loved, my everything.

“The fate of supporting roles may change, but the fate of the protagonist remains unchanged.”

It was annoying, but at this moment, I remembered what the woman said.

I vaguely knew it as well. That’s why I could naturally imagine the ending where Julius became the Emperor where Kaichen dies. I remembered what I had decided to do: to help Julius become emperor to the end of this novel.

By making that decision, the fate of ‘Dalia Alshine’ changed.

A mere supporting role, ‘Dalia,’ became the Great Mage’s disciple, became friends with the main character, the Crown Prince, and became connected with the female protagonist.

I don’t like the idea of conforming to fate.

In my previous life, I was on the side that believed, ‘I must pioneer my destiny.’ I often heard sayings like ‘it’s unfortunate to be born poor’ while drinking in a social gathering.

‘Isn’t it enough to make a decent living and enjoy what you want to do?’

‘If you’re born with a silver spoon in your mouth, you can do whatever you want. You don’t have to grovel to a company boss.’

‘Wouldn’t it be boring to be able to do anything? Isn’t the idea of having a predetermined destiny from birth… mundane? It would be nice to have some fun.’

‘You’re too carefree that it’s a problem. You said you were sexually harassed not long ago, right? When you were cursing and throwing a fit.’

‘Hahaha! That jerk got fired from the company. I reported him.’

‘What? He was your boss!’

‘It happened once or twice. When the lunatic wouldn’t stop, I thought, why should I bother with someone’s temper? These days, there are plenty of mini recording devices and cameras available, so it’s easy.’

‘…Aren’t you in an awkward position at your company?’

‘Do I need to feel awkward? They’re the ones who didn’t listen to the warning. I don’t care about what people around me say.’

‘Ah~ Why is my fate so difficult? If I were born with a personality like yours, I’d at least try to change my fate.’

Recalling a conversation with a friend who had always sung about wanting to be born rich, I bit my tongue.

Yes, I did have such a personality.

I hoped to enjoy the present while not conforming to fate and lived that way. I was receiving a decent salary for my age, and I was in an environment where I could enjoy my leisure time. I also received recognition for using my abilities to the fullest.

However, after my sudden death, when I transmigrated into the characters of a novel I was reading, I spent a long time alone. During that time,I promised myself that I would abandon the story and live a comfortable lif.

But was that really the conclusion I had in mind?

Could it be that I unconsciously adapted to become Dalia Alshine, a character in the novel, to live as a character in this world?  Was the Opahdok poison in Dalia’s body affecting my soul as well?

The more questions I asked, the more I couldn’t help but laugh. I heard men talking as they were torturing me with a droning noise from above.

I had been wrong from the start. Just because the protagonist of this novel, Julius, became the emperor didn’t mean my life would be complete.

I had already become ‘Dalia,’ and the fate originally intended for the real ‘Dalia’ was already twisted.

The person who holds Kaichen dear and is most afraid of him dying is me, even though I am Dahlia Alshine. I finally realized.

‘I feel so terrible.’

Muttering a bitter curse under my breath, I slowly raised my eyelids. I stared blankly at the two men who looked at me as if I was crazy.

I should have done it my way from the beginning. Why was I following the flow of the novel?

My decision was wrong from the beginning.

There was no need to hide.

There was no need for me to silently submit to this world that Exchetra had been working behind the scenes and trying to destroy.